2011 was a very busy and disappointing year for me. It seems I spent my whole year working something like 12 hours a day, in a job that has become really stifling and made me miserable all the time, with me doing things I really wasn't happy about. I also had a lot of plans that didn't push through, and has made me really think about the future and what I want to do about my life from here on.

The only thing that has gotten me through the past year has been my Arashi. When I downhearted I listened to their music, or watched a video and, for a moment, I was happy. The song "Carry On" really helped me a lot and has given me a lot of inspiration to proceed no matter how sad I was or how tough the miserable everyday was. So my love for Arashi is something that will not change.

With the start of 2012 I am once again filled with optimism for the coming days. It has occured to me that I should be doing something to achieve whatever it is I wanna do with my life, and stop proscrastinating. I really want to take a long break from work ( which is impossible with the numerous year-end reports I have to start preparing by tomorrow), and go on the trip my sister and I had been planning to go to since last,last year. I also want to study take computer lessons, and Japanese &/or Korean lessons. I also want to start dieting and starting to care about my body a lot more than I did in the past.

I wanna be a new and better "Me" this year. Next year I wanna look back and see only success and happy things and rainbows in my life. I wanna be able to live, not merely survive.